10-29-2010

11:38-not in the best mood but its late,and i cant realy hold a thought.i was pissed before ,the same reasons as always.nice people make me feel like shit sometimes .im on the brink these days,i always have been but even more so now .i think about it almost every day.not to the point that id kill myself but i just think about it every day,i dont know why . honestly i dont think i would but my facination with my own suicide scares even me sometimes.i think its just an uncontrollable plea for attention.because even i know how uncool it is to talk about suicide if you really dont mean it.maybe i just wish i had the nerve.